Bamboo Station

I’m off to the orthopedics. Hopefully they can finally tell me what’s wrong with my shoulder.

Or at the very least prescribe me pain kills that aren’t crap or ibuprofen that requires me to eat every time I need them. 

I wish I could talk to you without being emotional.

But because its so hard to talk to you, I hold everything in. By the time I try to speak to you, I can’t help but get upset.

I wish I could be like her and disregard everything you say, but I actually respect you and its harder for me not to listen. 

It shouldn’t be so that I cry everytime I try to tell you the way you make me feel.  You sign me off as soon as my eyes get teary and then you don’t want to talk anymore.

You’re the only one I can’t speak to seriously without getting upset, because you’re so negative. When I confront you, you want to change the way you speak and try to sound like your empowering me. But if you were really empowering me, why would I get upset? You say you mean well, but it doesn’t feel like it.

Its hard not to hate you.

Tomorrow will be a good day. 

I have $100 to buy a new summer wardrobe (well, shirts really). I’m going to try not to give up like I usually do and try to imaging clothing combinations more so I can actually walk out of the store with something. I’m very impatient when shopping, especially when I can’t find something I like

I want to buy more shorts, tank tops, and some of those oversized, flowy shirts.

Then I will relax for the rest of the day with the boyfriend (and maybe we’ll invite the friends for gaming with later that day).

We need to get a new game too since we finished Bioshock 2 so quickly. It was fun, but much shorter than the first one :/ I’m excited about Bioshock Infinite even though they keep pushing the release day back -_-